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I'm passionate about two things: writing and helping women suceed. I want to help you spread your message and dig deeper into your life. Let's go beyond the fluff and focus on the bigger picture.

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The Shadow Dwellers | For those who feel shrouded in darkness



For each tale told there's a world that holds its truth. This one takes its place in Reality, a sight filtered through the limiting beliefs of the creatures who call themselves Humans.

Volume I, Folktale III.


Darkness. An evil we’ve feared since the Beginning. We thought with experimentation and mastery of flame could surrender victory to us. But there’s a darkness that goes beyond what enters the eyes.

That is where they live.

Shadow Dwellers.

They turn their face from the sun of outgoing personalities and probe the earth for a tortoise shell shield. They’ve mastered the arts of blending in, speaking without being heard and extending themselves as bridges for the lightweight.

Soft and fluid are they. So much so that when there is an opportunity, they will, indeed, adapt. To the point where they break rule number one.

Dweller rule #1: Never open your eyes when the sun comes out.


When a Dweller opens her eyes, she is blinded. So much so that is warps her thinking. Her face gets hot, her eyebrows wilt, and the most common first thought enter the brain.

Why am I shrouded in darkness?

She is paralyzed by the very thing she will now crave.

The light.

Out of her way she will go, to manipulate and bend the light her way. But no one can quite master the darkness. Those who try rarely win this fight.

She will inevitably burn.

- - -

Do you ever feel like this?

No matter how hard you try, you're invisible. No one sees you. No one hears you. You make them laugh but so easily you are forgotten. They move on. They change, running with the tide while you sink like a rock to the bottom of the river.

Or maybe you're seen and you don't like it. You wrap the cloak of dark around your shoulders and wish you could sink.

Maybe you don't know where you are because you can't open your eyes.

Here's something to ponder.

What if we lived in the light forever?

Think beyond lovely tan. Beyond skin cancer. Beyond singed sight. Go to the lower levels where you feel uncomfortable. Sit there for a while.

Think it over.

If we were all showered in light ALL the time, how would we be able to see each other shine?

Reminders:


  • You’re not a victim.
  • You’ll find your gang.
  • I know this hurts. But please, don't take the risk of changing yourself - you may get burned. Instead, keep trying. Keep running, walking, crawling, twitching. Dream that dream, pursue that passion and turn those lemons into lemonade!
  • You’re still you. That you that picked your friend up. The you that walked through the bone-chilling air to grab someone’s coat. The you that knows how to make her laugh, make him smile, make them change their perspective. You have worlds inside you. You have God’s hand on your life. You have Better Moments ahead of you.


Grab the rail. Enjoy the view. Know when the let go.


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If you found this post encouraging, please share it. Thank you for being a light in this world. <3

January 2017 | Goals + Emotional Progress

This is a transparent monthly reflection where I take the time to look back, view my progress and make adjustments.

Monthly Project: Hand write a letter to someone I love and send it.

Sadly, I did not do this. Time slipped away and I didn't make this one a priority. Better luck next month, Rosie!

Health → Exercise 3 days/week, drink 65oz. water/day


Exercise checked off in bullet journal habit keeper: Yes → I exercised 14/13 days.

Water checked off in bullet journal habit keeper: Yes → I drank 65 oz. of water 11/31 days.

Relationships → Reach out to one new person a week

How many people I reached out to or met: 5

Did I ask them a deep/personal question? Yes and no.

Did I record my encounters? Yes.

Finances → Grow to $7k/month

I earned $585 this month: No

If no, how much money did I make? $75

Career → Prep book for publication

I chose a book: Yes → The Messy Months: August to December

I began editing The Messy Months: Yes

I edited a full draft: No, but I DID do a full draft read through to mark loose threads, plot holes, character inconsistencies and so on.

Personal/Spiritual Development → Memorize 1 scripture/week, Earn my Bachelor's degree

How many scriptures did I memorize this month? 0

I reviewed and recited these memorized scriptures: No

I began college Algebra class: Yes


Play/Recreation → Write 500+ words/day

I wrote 15,500 words this month: No

If no, state how many words written this month: 7500 (48% of goal)

Average of (about) 242 words a day.


Service → Post on my blog (at least) once a month.

I posted this month on Self Known: Yes!

Link to post: www.selfknownblog.com/2017/01/how-we-rise


This month’s notes:

Lows


  • Teaching the youth. (cringe)
  • My closet. I have over 100 clothing items and I'm pretty sure I wear the same three shirts as often as I can...
  • My busy schedule has made it hard to keep my habits.
  • I relapsed several times. I continually had the mindset that my self-worth was equivalent to what another person thought of me. Whether it be (lack of) attraction to me or just someone else's bad day. I had some periods this month where my soul attached itself to the very things I spend time trying to avoid.
  • Every time I go on Bloglovin', I'm met with negative follower growth. :'(

Highs


  • I started an online college class!!!!!!!
  • Winter Jam was BOMB.
  • I look really good in mustard colored clothes.
  • Winter Retreat was cold but ah-mazing. <3
  • Cute guys are all over the place. Seriously. They're at the grocery store and they're waiting tables in restaurants and they're hiding in college bands. Say wuut.
  • My plants are growing.

How is your 2017 going so far, friend?

Valued Where We Stand



I was up late one night, scrolling through my Instagram feed and telling myself to get some sleep. But once I've gotten a taste of the world and all it has to offer, it's hard to turn my brain off.

I thought about the college girls get together I was going to go to. What I was going to share - should I be deep and personal? Or is it not worth the pain? What if I cry? - and what I was going to say. I mean, what if I told them about my favorite book and how it strikes me where all the favorite books do (in the heart) because the guy chooses the gal first and things aren't always perfect between the couple but they love.

And she.

She is always his first choice.

And then I cried because there is so much talent out there, the world is so big, and I want to play my part - a whole, independent part - but there is this hungry, fleshy part of me that cries longs desires companionship.

To be valued enough to be someone's first choice.

Not romantically. But purely. To have someone meet my eyes and smile in a way that lets me know they take joy in seeing me.

These thoughts are tricky, muddy trenches.

I tend to end up slopping through the trenches because I lose sight of important things. Like the sunshine and how I do love myself - crazy as it seems. I am enough, yet I forget.

So when that rope comes down and the search light sears my eyes--

What is that?

What pulls me free?

Not self.

Not man.

But God.

It says, in Titus 3, verses 3 through 5: "At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit..."

We are valued where we stand. Or fall. Or flail or weep or cry out with joy. The point is, God cares and does not cast His gaze away.

No matter how softly we cry.

Friend, it's okay to feel empty. It's okay to feel as though you lack belief. Or just feel as though you lack. If only we could wrap our heads around the fact that one moment doesn't have to define everything. One desire doesn't have to be a searing pain in your side for the rest of your days. One disappointment doesn't have to lead to constant failure.

We are enough.

We are valued.

We are human. We bounce back, rebuild, and use phrases until they become cliches. Because. We. Are. Stubborn!

Life is not a bright and shining gold-paved street. It is a walk through paper cuts and hand sanitizer rain.

Bind your wounds:




Now let's win.

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